Hello, it seems that you are experiencing a tough time in your life now. let’s remember it's okay to feel disappointed or frustrated. The important thing is not to dwell on these negative feelings for too long. Instead, try to focus on finding solutions and tougher attitude towards life. Confidence is a great asset, use it to keep moving forward. Also, remember, it's never shameful to seek help, whether from friends, family, or professionals. Everything will get better in time.